Hanging out with myself

Twain will be away more and more. I can see this is a hectic hectic year for him. He just got back from KL yesterday, flying to Bangkok the day after tomorrow and Dubai a week later. I'm happy for him for he loves what he is doing and I want him to go all out to do what he wants. Who else loves what they are doing nowadays? I don't even know if I am. I haven't heard much people say they love what they are doing for ages.

The thing I hate about him being away is the fact that he is not around, but I love getting to look forward to his return.

I'm sitting in the living room myself again tonight. Twain had gone to a business meeting and ya people had business meeting till mid night nowadays. Don't ask me why. I ops for some reading while listening to Craig Linders's piano collection tonight and I had always enjoy moment like this. The feeling of serenity and content. The feeling of if given a choice, I will still choose to be where I am right now spending time with myself.

Everyone need to have some things they love to keep them going. For me, besides having time with my beloved family and all my favorite friends, moment like now is what I love, hanging out with myself. It is seriously not as bad as what we think to be alone. I am getting a little hang of it actually.

My 2007 revolutions

I just realized during lunch today that almost all my colleagues give their parents some money on a monthly basis. Me? Never.

Think of it, I felt so bad and guilty. My parents had taken such a good care of me and had also given me every single possible things I need on earth but other than CNY ang pow, I have neither given them anything nor had i ever buy them a trip to anywhere. My heart sink as I think. I am at the stage where I should have a lum sum of saving and are financial stable and are at least credit card debt free but I am so NOT! The least I can do is at least get them a yearly medical insurance cover right?

I feel so ashame for not being able to do just that. How do they feel each time when they hear neighbors or friends bragging about where their kids take them and how much they got from their kids each month? Do they feel sad and tears in private? Or do they feel totally alright about it?

I know money is not everything, and I know both of you would prefer and will be happier if we are well and spend more time with you but I still feel that to be able to give even a little is the least responsibility I should do. Without you, I won't be where I am today and please do not doubt my love for both of you. I know, you know I love you.

I have put this as first priority in my to-do-list and it is definitely my No.1 2007 revolution!